We've all had the painful experience of knowing in our hearts that we’re on the wrong path, that we need to make a change, but that the fear of the unknown is holding us back: in a relationship, a job, a dream. That distinct feeling of incorrigible ‘wrongness’ is painful to come to terms with. After a decade of working in the fashion industry, I had come to realize that my passion was completely dependent upon a system that didn't make any sense to me. It was messy, overly complicated, prohibitively expensive and wasteful at almost every level.
When I talk about the experience of "flipping the table," I speak of my realization that I had been trying (and failing) to reconfigure the same things over and over again. I spent years moving the same pieces around: showrooms, PR agencies, department store exclusives, and so on. I finally concluded that I needed a clean slate. I had to give myself the one thing that the fashion world doesn't allow... time. The mental space to determine whether or not my passion for designing clothes was still alive. Did I want to stay in my city? Was I content working in an industry that was becoming increasingly harmful to the creatives that nourished it? I took three months off -- three of the most uncomfortable months I've ever experienced as a professional, a struggle that I'm so grateful I worked through. Not wanting to make a decision based on fear or conform to a predetermined path, I forced myself to embrace the feeling of not knowing what to do next -- only then could I come to a conclusion of what I did want to do. The practice of "flipping the table" allowed me to build a clear idea of the path I wanted to take. Over the next two years, I moved from an idea to a plan, and eventually, to THE KIT.